this is where we stand.

I will be your weakness.
I will be your fear.
I will break your bones
and suck out the marrow.
I will cut your chest open
and make a home in your heart

I will ruin you
and then I will fix you.

I will pack your photo in my suitcase.
I will look at it sometimes.
I will write about you in my journal.
I will say nice things mostly.

I will think about your face
and I love it and hate it at the same time.
I will think of your body.
I will remember how warm you are.

I will write even if you aren't reading.
I will talk even if you aren't listening.
I will wish even if there's no use wishing.

I will forget you.
I will remember you.
I will compare you to everyone I ever meet,
and I know that you will do the same
but never admit to it.